Seriously confuse with the term marriage.
I love babies.
Like seriously love them. I could look for hours at babies.
But I could not even get one.
Make one.
OK not make one because that's God's will.
I did the solah istikharah etc.
But the signs saying I have to be patience.
I know about what you want doesn't mean its good for you.
and by not getting what you want doesn't mean its bad for you
It's like God is saying to my face, "It's for Me to know and for you to find out."
But find out what?
Look the things is I can't find happiness within me.
I just found out that my husband have a thing with his ex.
F888.
Ok I used to have a thing with every body. Flirt with every body.
But that was before I got married.
Yeah.
What I did with my not yet husband is consider a sin.
But what different does it make to do with any other guy.
Just to be clear.
That was before I got married.
Now I'm married.
I say no to all the guys.
Isn't that shows how faithful I am.
I don't love any of them.
I love my husband.
I don't go around claiming my love for them.
But he said that he still love her and miss her.
What's that suppose to mean.
I cried like the whole day.
F888.
I know he is sorry because he got caught.
Now I know where I stand.
I'm in nobody's heart.
No one.
I just want to be in someone's heart like faithful and understanding.
maybe I want to be like the movies which is not.
I just want what I give I got back.
Then that would make me not sincere.
Ok back to babies.
I just want them.
Ok now be patience.
God have bigger plans for you.
Then how come there are family's who is even a lot worst than I am get babies easily.
Now I'm comparing which is the worse.
Why?
I should be comparing and planing on how to become the best and be like the Prophet.
What is the plan?
